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Forest of Despair

by INMANIA

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1.
From Hell 02:38
Every time I lift my head up to the black skies, I see the burning fire, yet I can’t escape my lies… There’s a silence lurking, calling me to die. Running from hell, my fists punch through the earth, just to catch a breath. Can I find the key, to unlock all life’s mystery; every human has a reason to keep their soul alive. Will I live, or will I die, the stars above call to me. Running through hell, my fists punch through the earth, just to catch a breath. Can I find the key, to unlock all life’s mystery, and to keep my soul alive. Every time I lift my head up to the black skies, I see the burning fire, yet I can’t escape my LIES. NOW I HAVE TO DIE.
2.
I am the one that you see when your time has come, I am the one that you see when your time has come. I’ll take your pain and your suffering, all from your insanity to your misery I am the one. I am the one that your feel when you can’t escape, you can’t escape your own thoughts and feelings. You will submit to me, I’ll take you pain and set you free. I am your darkened soul, I am the one that you seek when you’ve lost control. I am your darkened soul, I am the only god that you’ll ever now. I am the one that you feel when insanity’s got you by the throat, pull the rope tight, don’t worry it’ll be alright. I will be there when you fall, into the flames, you’ll cry out my name. I AM YOUR own mind. YOU THINK, I only exist on the outside, I am the charred insides of your own desire, you smoke the black fire, igniting my spirit, take me higher. Take a look inside of your eyes, in your retina you’ll see the fire, I am inside of you, always here when you need a good liar. I am your darkened soul, I am your darkened soul, I am your own mind, all you need to do is take a look INSIDE.
3.
He’s always searching and forever learning, new ways of thinking, looking for the answer, manipulation, change the situation. There’s always some new relation for The Perfectionist, he must live in the moment, but he can’t escape the past… or the future. He must change it must change, everything is nothing in less he finds Perfection. Sever, the neurons from his brain, change the chemical makeup of his mind. Come on, give me a break he cries, please just one more time he sighs… He’s never satisfied. Living in a sea of lies, searching for the answer, never finding what he needs, deceiving those he just can’t please, the perfectionist, the perfectionist falls to his knees. A pool of blood surrounds him this time, his reflection in his shattered window pane reflects to him his first sign of…. PERFECTION. He’s always searching and forever learning, new ways of thinking, looking for the answer, manipulation, change the situation. Now, life is over for the perfectionist, he’s left in a pool of blood, believing every lie, he found THE CURE.
4.
Blacked Out 04:50
Blood bursts within my veins, rip the flesh from my own bones, I spit on my corpse tonight, fuck this world and fuck this life. My brain is lost in a sea of toxic chemicals I can’t see me, reality has lost its feeling, what is happening to me. The damage has been done, I can’t turn back, a bad seed born under the, darkest moon, and the darkest skies, this is just the way it’s meant to be. DON'T. Don’t stand in my way, WHY, cause my life’s at stake tonight, cause I just blacked out, and I don’t know who I am. Blood bursts within my veins, rip the flesh from my own bones, I spit on my corpse tonight, fuck this world and fuck this life. My brain is lost in a sea of toxic chemicals I can’t see me, reality has lost its feeling, what is happening to me now. DON'T. Don’t stand in my way, WHY, cause my life’s at stake tonight, cause I just blacked out, and I don’t know who I am. I don't even know who I am... It’s too late for me.
5.
Human Demise 02:59
Walking endlessly, through this plain existence, abandon fear, I am your fear, left at the point of no return. Away from true life traveling downward, at the rate of a violent storm, a soothing wave of disgust engulfing, the willing body to become one with the worlds…. HUMAN DEMISE. This is time, time given to the other side, why have faith in good, when this high feels So Good. Tomorrows promise is one of consequence. A smug existence, in a false reality, a perverted mind, in an ocean of… Sluts. Walking faster thinking madly, hoping only for guilt and remorse, though feeling so high. Sadness embraces, this cold soul. Memory is vague, what is the truth, who’s at fault, what will be the end result. Say goodbye, take another sigh, cause, life’s passing you buy, you’re a part of the world’s Human Demise. Away from true life traveling downward, at the rate of a violent storm, a soothing wave of disgust engulfing, the willing body to become one with the worlds…. HUMAN DEMISE.
6.
It took me twelve years just to get to where I am in this forest, of despair all I smell is all the bodies burning in the air, never thought this would be the way, I’d say goodbye, but now it’s time to lay my body down to die. And just when I thought it was over, I heard em cry… Welcome, welcome to the forest… welcome to the forest of despair. Welcome, to the forest of despair. Wisdom, I just couldn’t stop, Self-Knowledge, was never enough, Respect, I just couldn’t stop. The fire will burn down, these tree tops to the ground, or I’ll cut my own throat. This is just my disease. I’ve spent a few years now in this forest of despair, been a couple close calls where I’ve almost fallen into the fire below. And just when I thought it was over, I heard em cry… Welcome, welcome to the forest… welcome to the forest of despair. Welcome, to the forest of despair. We got to pull together if were ever gonna make it out alive. The truth is many of us don’t make it out of the forest of despair.
7.
We walk towards this black hole in our lives, forgetting everything, just for this one time. My lust for her exists before, exists before mankind. Her lust for me is just for this one time, I slit my wrists, just to pour the blood between her thighs. Between her thighs I’ll make her feel me, between her thighs she’ll see the real me. We walk towards this black hole in our lives, forgetting everything, just for this one time. My lust for her exists before, exists before mankind. We walk towards the entrance of hell, sick and dying I’m lost between her thighs, at least here I think I feel fine, might just be me, but I think I’d like to Die. I’m Lost, I’m lost between her thighs. I’m Lost, I’m lost between her thighs. Between her thighs I’ll make her feel me, between her thighs she’ll see the real me. I’m Lost, I’m lost between her thighs. Her lust for me is just for this one time, I slit my wrists, please just let her cry. Between her thighs I’ll make her feel me, between her thighs she’ll see the real me.
8.
Open your ears this time, take your deepest sigh, don’t let life, pass you by. This is the story of man who’s lost in self, on the journey through his own plain existence. Always running from his own, darkened soul, blacked out from his own mind, becoming one with the world’s… human demise. Every man has a chance, to turn it around, grab ahold of his heart, and regain his dignity. The red moon breaks the darkness, his blood is boiling NOW, fed up from this life he will turn back around, and walk back though the forest of despair, this is a pinnacle… pinnacle projection. This is the story of a man who walked back out, from his own self through the burning trees, his wounds seared shut by flame, his mind empowered by courage, he will reach the top. The red moon breaks the darkness, his blood is boiling NOW, fed up from this life he will turn back around…. and walk back though the forest of despair. He will conquer this nightmare, and live a life of honor, this is a pinnacle projection, this is my own.
9.
END 02:36

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This album was engineered and produced 100% DIY. Using an 8 track digital recorder. Jesse Carson, former guitarist of the band Warblade and current guitarist of the band Agiel, composed all the music and lyrics in 2010. The first demo was done using a drum machine. Then Erik Burke, former guitarist of Brutal Truth, Lethargy and drummer of Kalibas came into the picture. The whole album was then refined with Erik on drums. After a second run of demos, the final production began. The raw tracks were sent to James Taylor, front man and keyboardist of Agiel, to be mixed and mastered. Forest of Despair was inspired by a struggle with addiction and insanity. The album is free to download, take it and play it for as many people as possible. That would be greatly appreciated.

Best regards,

Jesse Carson

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released May 9, 2012

All music and lyrics composed by Jesse Carson
All drum arrangements by Erik Burke
Mixed and Mastered by James Taylor
Guest appearances by Mark Welden of Warblade, Benjamin Schaefer, Nick Carson, and James Taylor.
All photography by Brandi Brocious
Logo by Christophe Szpajdel
Cover Art by Frank Battaglini

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